Comfort, discomfort and uncertainty
Wednesday September 27, 2006

My chest hurts… I think that I may have pulled a few muscles, but right now it feels like somebody that is really really heavy is sitting on my chest, making it difficult to breathe, and more than a little painful.

So as you may have been able to tell in the last post, I’m feeling crap. I can’t really put my finger on what is wrong but I guess that it’s just the compounding stress from the last few weeks. I’ve been given what I feel is an unfair amount of responsibility with projects over the last few weeks. The responsibility is definitely outside the roles in the projects that have been assigned to me, and as such I have been unprepared for the additional stress.

It’s not as though getting things done is the problem, it’s just the fact that sometimes it feels like I’m doing other peoples work for them.

And I guess the other thing is home stuff… well, it’s not home stuff, but it’s that Vincent is having a pretty tricky time with work and responsibility too. Soooo by the time we get home, neither of us is in that great a mood…

I dunno. I guess that all I can say is “life ain’t that grand right now”.

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I just came back from a client meeting. It was all right… I enjoy going to client meetings when I don’t have to say anything. It’s an interesting experience to watch the way that other people interact when there is a bit of a powerplay going on in the room.

I don’t think that I have the confidence to run a meeting like that yet. Lol. I definitely don’t have the answers to the tricky questions! That’s a skill that comes with experience I guess… right now I’m content with “I’m not sure off the top of my head, I’ll have to get back to you”.

Being a naturally shy person, I’m not eager to step into that role, but I guess I will have to. What techniques do you use to gain confidence outside of your comfort zone?