The need for equality in all things
Friday February 16, 2007

I had a meeting scheduled with my manager this morning, to talk about study and progression options. He decided to take the day off today, and informed me this morning.

Normally this wouldn’t bother me, but this meeting has already been rescheduled, and it wasn’t because of my unavailablity!

I understand that meetings with clients are very important, but looking after your staff is equally important, if not more so, because they’re the driving force behind your company. If you schedule a meeting that you know is important, you should not be able to take the day off unless you’re sick.

I don’t want my progression and my study to be held back just because somebody else doesn’t think that it’s “that important”. If I had to enrol somewhere to do a course and this had happened, I would have missed out for the semester.

But what pisses me off the most is that I want to talk about the company helping me get better at what I do, so that I can bring more to the company. But. Because of the missed meetings and the “forgotten” meetings, I feel as though the company doesn’t want to help me.

What this says to me is, “as a company, [we] want to get as much out of you as possible, but we’re not prepared to help you get anything that you want”.

I constantly get asked to do more than I can yet I always try and do it. I schedule my days off around what I am being asked to work on and I’m always conscious of the effects of when I take a day off.

I give a lot to the company, and even though this is the first time I’ve felt really let down, it has really hit me hard that maybe I’m giving too much.